went to sch today for a short while. the weather was so hot and i was half melting. cannot stand the weather today. dunno y it was so hot. and today it became the first time that i hated gg to sch so much all coz of the buses and the weather.

hehe... i received an email saying i sold one of my books. so happy. got $$ again. haha.. i think this term, i have to buy 2 new txtbooks again. haiz... so waste $$. y always change the edition leh?

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now i really wonder whether i have made the right choice in the first place by staying on. i think life will be better for me if the path chosen was the other one. there is always this thinking that the other unchosen path will be brighter when a difficulty is met on the chosen path. and we are always regretting and blaming ourselves for making the wrong choice.

if i have not chosen this, ... OR if i have chosen that in the first place, ....

and this scenario is what i m gg thru right now. and i think i will be better off if i have taken the other path. i wont be so xin ku now. the thought of it makes me sadder. i think i have become more fragile. or is it that i cannot take it anymore and is on the verge of a breakdown?

if i have chosen another path, things will be different:
1) i will have 2 weeks of long break b4 sch starts
2) there will be more shopping and baking time
3) i wont be feeling so sad the other day
4) they wont have to bother abt me and my bugging
5) i dun have to face the problem i m facing now
6) i dun have to be so worried abt the proj not meeting the timeline all the time
7) plus i wont be feeling so sad and tired
8) +++ i wont be regretting now
9) ++++++ i wont have so much white hair coz i dun need to worry and think so much
10) lastly, on the whole, my life will be much more better

but this is working life. this is what others might be experiencing. and there are so many out there working part-time while studying and they have endured it. wat's there for me to complain so much?